Did u ever get that feeling of everything will be much better when you start a new phase in your life? Like you'd think somehow it'll just turn great.. just like in fairytales!
Not this phase, not university life. I mean I'm grateful for what I have, looking at other girls who are like aliens to me, even dressed like aliens! ( if u've ever seen an alien then u'd know what i mean..) I look at these girls & I thank God for what he gave me, the great-amazing-ideal parents, the supportive-annoying siblings, the faithful-caring-helpful-retarded-crazy-goofy-funny friends. But then university life should be great, that's what people said..
I know that many students around the world feel exactly like I do right now & some will tell me "give it a chance".. "it'll get better in time".. but i just don't feel like this is where i belong.. I need a shrink maybe.. hmm. Nah I'll just go shopping & everything will be great again :)
To proof it, 2 days ago I went to Mall Of Emirates & the minute I entered the mall I had this wonderful feeling of joy & comfortness (if that's a word).. "THIS is where I belong!" it clicked to me. I thought that what Becky feels was over exaggerated, but really, she's not. Like today, I wore my new bag & most girls were checking it out! :D
However.. this joy is always killed when I have my free time between classes, when i go to the food court, sit alone, drink alone.. sometimes pretend i'm with someone at the phone ( ya i got that sad).. then after a while a girl comes to me and ask if she can take the chairs from my table.. I always say "sure" because am always alone & dont expect someone to come & sit next to me.. somehow i've grown immune to "lonelyness"! ha! :D
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